Blair posted this on her blog a while ago, and I just have to share it with you. I was inspired... hope you will be, too!
TED talk with Dr. Jill Bolte Taylor
Friday, March 28, 2008
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
A Quiet Moment...
Down time is something almost unheard of in this household. With a 5-year-old, a 3-year-old, and my own 18-month-old, things can get a little hectic. "Spring Break" is this week, and I put that in quotes because my duties with the kids continue. My lovely mother comes over every Tuesday to rescue my sanity for a few hours. I look forward to the break, as it's usually my only one. Ahh, and today is Tuesday.
To be honest, I have been down off and on since the miscarriages, and I go back and forth about whether to subject my body (and my emotions) to more upheaval. Sometimes I am alright with not trying again, and possibly adopting in the future (be it near or far). All those feelings change when I walk into church and hear my friend talking to someone about her recent 8-week ultrasound, complete with healthy baby and strong heartbeat. That should have been us... twice. It cuts to the core. In times like those, I know I must try one more time. But when is enough enough?
I know now that my calling is first and foremost to be Dorothy's mommy and my hubby's wife. However, beyond those things, I am supposed to help people... more specifically, people with babies. I am weighing my options at this point, and have decided that if I pursue the nursing degree, my hope is to earn my Nurse-Midwife certification as well. But something I have been considering since I was pregnant with Dorothy is med school. It took me months to tell David about it. After all, we have a child and I know residency is hell. I also know God has given me gifts and He wants me to use them, one of them being my mind. Whether I go into nursing school or medical school, I know those gifts will be used. I'm leaning more toward midwifery, but honestly, I would like to see both in action before I decide which one to pursue. Mainly, I need to see what the differences are in order to find out which would suit my personality. Family comes into play, too. Is the time sacrifice going to be worth it? How hard am I willing to fight to get in? Will we have to relocate?
My classes are going well so far. Grades were posted yesterday, and I have maintained my 4.0. Next term I will be taking college algebra and Psychology 215 (developmental psych). That is, if my math class stays open. Enrollment is low at this point, so I'm hoping a few more people register... I think we only need 4 more.
That's life in a nutshell right now. My next OB appointment is on the 31st, and I'm pretty sure we'll be cleared to try again at that point, if we're ready. We shall see.
To be honest, I have been down off and on since the miscarriages, and I go back and forth about whether to subject my body (and my emotions) to more upheaval. Sometimes I am alright with not trying again, and possibly adopting in the future (be it near or far). All those feelings change when I walk into church and hear my friend talking to someone about her recent 8-week ultrasound, complete with healthy baby and strong heartbeat. That should have been us... twice. It cuts to the core. In times like those, I know I must try one more time. But when is enough enough?
I know now that my calling is first and foremost to be Dorothy's mommy and my hubby's wife. However, beyond those things, I am supposed to help people... more specifically, people with babies. I am weighing my options at this point, and have decided that if I pursue the nursing degree, my hope is to earn my Nurse-Midwife certification as well. But something I have been considering since I was pregnant with Dorothy is med school. It took me months to tell David about it. After all, we have a child and I know residency is hell. I also know God has given me gifts and He wants me to use them, one of them being my mind. Whether I go into nursing school or medical school, I know those gifts will be used. I'm leaning more toward midwifery, but honestly, I would like to see both in action before I decide which one to pursue. Mainly, I need to see what the differences are in order to find out which would suit my personality. Family comes into play, too. Is the time sacrifice going to be worth it? How hard am I willing to fight to get in? Will we have to relocate?
My classes are going well so far. Grades were posted yesterday, and I have maintained my 4.0. Next term I will be taking college algebra and Psychology 215 (developmental psych). That is, if my math class stays open. Enrollment is low at this point, so I'm hoping a few more people register... I think we only need 4 more.
That's life in a nutshell right now. My next OB appointment is on the 31st, and I'm pretty sure we'll be cleared to try again at that point, if we're ready. We shall see.
Tuesday, March 04, 2008
Not Technically Tagged....
But it seemed like an easy enough meme to do:) Catherine had this on her site.
The rules are simple. Look up from the computer, look around the room where you're sitting and pick up the closest book. And closest really means closest. No cheating by running upstairs to unearth your pink-highlighted college copy of The Critique of Pure Reason or the Prolegomena. Open the book, turn to page 123, count down to the fifth sentence on that page, and then post the next three sentences.
Well, there are 3 books nearest me: my LB Brief Writing Handbook. Blah. My Elementary and Intermediate Algebra Textbook. Double blah. And my writing textbook called The Writer's Presence. I'll go with that one, since there are at least stories in that one!
On Pg 123 the story is "A Clack of Tiny Sparks" by Bernard Cooper
"He was 'all wound up,' as my mother put it."
The rules are simple. Look up from the computer, look around the room where you're sitting and pick up the closest book. And closest really means closest. No cheating by running upstairs to unearth your pink-highlighted college copy of The Critique of Pure Reason or the Prolegomena. Open the book, turn to page 123, count down to the fifth sentence on that page, and then post the next three sentences.
Well, there are 3 books nearest me: my LB Brief Writing Handbook. Blah. My Elementary and Intermediate Algebra Textbook. Double blah. And my writing textbook called The Writer's Presence. I'll go with that one, since there are at least stories in that one!
On Pg 123 the story is "A Clack of Tiny Sparks" by Bernard Cooper
"He was 'all wound up,' as my mother put it."
Thursday, February 21, 2008
The Hair
Like I said, the pictures don't do it justice, and I am wearing no makeup or earrings, but you get the idea.
Tuesday, February 12, 2008
Wednesday, February 06, 2008
An exercise in thankfulness
Things I am grateful for:
1- This man, who is strong, handsome, supportive, and intelligent. I can't imagine my life without him.
2- My sweet Dorothy, who brings constant joy and laughter to my life. She is my gift!
3- These girls, my two nieces, who I have the privilege of watching every day (that's my mommy in the picture with them).
4- All the family that is a part of our life.
5- We have a place to live and a job that has provided for our needs.
Those are just a few things to be thankful for.
1- This man, who is strong, handsome, supportive, and intelligent. I can't imagine my life without him.
2- My sweet Dorothy, who brings constant joy and laughter to my life. She is my gift!
3- These girls, my two nieces, who I have the privilege of watching every day (that's my mommy in the picture with them).
4- All the family that is a part of our life.
5- We have a place to live and a job that has provided for our needs.
Those are just a few things to be thankful for.
Friday, February 01, 2008
Oooouuuuuuchhh...
I tried to upload the cutest video, but pictures will have to do for now...
Dorothy loves her boxes.
My favorite haircut ever (the day we found out I was pregnant in December).
Our crazy, so-unlike-Oregon snowstorm over the weekend.
Turkey and dumplings. I needed some comfort food on Monday (the day of our most recent miscarriage). Need I say more?
My something to smile about.....
I had my follow-up appointment with my new OB yesterday morning. Initially, I was going to demand to see a specialist... maybe I should have, but she seemed to be very proactive. She's doing several blood tests for me, and a few for David as well. Regardless of what (if anything) she finds out from the blood tests, when we do try again we will both have a round of antibiotics at the beginning of that cycle. If/when I conceive, I will be on progesterone supplements from the moment I find out that I am pregnant. If we can make it through the first trimester, the plan will be the same as with Dorothy: cerclage at 13 weeks, weekly progesterone shots/ultrasounds, and probable bedrest and contraction meds. My OB did ask me if I wanted a lot of children. What a loaded question! But rationally, I know that one more full-term pregnancy is all I am shooting for. Her advice was the same, that she only wanted to see me go through one more pregnancy, and she'd like to see me go for a tubal (or vasectomy for DH) after that. I can live with that. With the struggle it has been to even get where we are, it's probably best physically and emotionally not to pursue it any further after two children. She advised us to wait two normal cycles before we try, so that would put us tentatively trying again around the beginning of April IF my next two cycles are on the short end, as I tend to be irregular. That's it for now!
Dorothy loves her boxes.
My favorite haircut ever (the day we found out I was pregnant in December).
Our crazy, so-unlike-Oregon snowstorm over the weekend.
Turkey and dumplings. I needed some comfort food on Monday (the day of our most recent miscarriage). Need I say more?
My something to smile about.....I had my follow-up appointment with my new OB yesterday morning. Initially, I was going to demand to see a specialist... maybe I should have, but she seemed to be very proactive. She's doing several blood tests for me, and a few for David as well. Regardless of what (if anything) she finds out from the blood tests, when we do try again we will both have a round of antibiotics at the beginning of that cycle. If/when I conceive, I will be on progesterone supplements from the moment I find out that I am pregnant. If we can make it through the first trimester, the plan will be the same as with Dorothy: cerclage at 13 weeks, weekly progesterone shots/ultrasounds, and probable bedrest and contraction meds. My OB did ask me if I wanted a lot of children. What a loaded question! But rationally, I know that one more full-term pregnancy is all I am shooting for. Her advice was the same, that she only wanted to see me go through one more pregnancy, and she'd like to see me go for a tubal (or vasectomy for DH) after that. I can live with that. With the struggle it has been to even get where we are, it's probably best physically and emotionally not to pursue it any further after two children. She advised us to wait two normal cycles before we try, so that would put us tentatively trying again around the beginning of April IF my next two cycles are on the short end, as I tend to be irregular. That's it for now!
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