Just a day in the life!

So goes another day on bedrest. On and off since the beginning of the pregnancy I have been having mysterious cramping. Now I don't really know how much cramping is a normal part of pregnancy and at what point it would be considered contractions. Most of the time I drive myself crazy trying to figure out if I should call the dr. or just suck it up and face the fact that my uterus is expanding daily, stretching muscles and ligaments that are not normally stretched. And every time my lower back is sore, which happens frequently what with laying down all day, I wonder..... is it labor or just a consequence of being a forced couch potato??? Being that I have never experienced a normal pregnancy and never will I may never know what is normal. Every week when I go to the dr. the nurses ask me if I have had cramping or bleeding. I say no bleeding, but cramping.... most of the time. I guess they figure that as long as my cervix measures within a good range that the cramping is of no concern. But it still concerns me. Especially being that the dr. does not seem to want to assure me that things are going to be ok. All he can say is that they have gone ok so far and that all we can do is hope.

I suppose I have resigned myself to the fact that I am going to analyze every twinge and pain until the day this baby comes, which hopefully won't be until at least 32 weeks, preferably longer. Seems a long way down the road, as tomorrow is only my 17 week mark. But I have made it to another mini-goal. Next on the list.... appointment on wednesday.