Sunday, April 29, 2007

Bad Blogger

We've been kinda busy the past couple of weeks. I find that now with the part time job, it's harder to keep up blogging. Dorothy and the house take priority. And so does....

Our NEW VAN!

Yep, we found a Dodge Grand Caravan. It's a 2002, so not super new, but its' in great condition! I'm loving it, and Dorothy's new car seat that is much easier to get her in and out of; especially since she's right at arm level instead of down on the ground like in the Celica.

I finally went to a physical therapist for my intense back pain that I've been having since Dorothy was born. I KNOW. I'm so bad for waiting on it and I should have had my back looked at sooner cause now it's going to take for. ever. to. get. better. But really. I had two doctors (several months apart) tell me to take ibuprofen. Yeah, as if it even eases the pain whatsoever. Sneezing has been bringing me to my knees for months. Sitting in one place is torture. It's about time I did something about it.

Friday, April 20, 2007

Yee Haw!

The car sold to the first person who looked at it for the asking price!

Thursday, April 19, 2007

wish us luck!

We have two people coming to look at the Toyota today, and both of them sound really interested. One of them would even be willing to pay for it today if she decides on this car. Hopefully we'll sell it by the end of today. If not, at least we know people are looking, right?

Wednesday, April 18, 2007

For Sale

Our Celica is now up for sale on Craigslist. No calls yet, but I'm hoping it sells quickly. As soon as it sells we can go van shopping!

I've tried to get some good pictures of it, but we've had so many rainy days lately that these were the best I could get:





But here are some more cute pictures of Dorothy....



Say what?






Yeah, I know I'm cute...








Gah! Ma, do you have to?






Mmmmmm....

Monday, April 16, 2007

Weekend

My retreat was a lot of fun this weekend. It was nice to be able to see people that I don't see very often any more. When I go, I still feel like I'm a part of the group, which I still don't really feel like at our current church. If it wasn't a forty minute drive, I'd want to be going there on a regular basis.

On the baby front, Dorothy is now cutting her first little teeth. For the most part she's been handling it really well, just drooling and chewing on everything in sight. She's really in to grabbing everything now. Still not sitting up yet, but I think that should be coming soon. I would think she'd be sitting up by over 7 months, but I guess she's a bit slower on the physical milestones. She'll probably start doing everything all at once and I'll be in for it then:)

An opportunity has come up to go on a trip to Israel. Over the weekend the speaker said they would be taking a trip in November for 10 days. If I can come up with $2600 for the trip, I should be able to go. That would be nothing short of a miracle, but I'm really hoping to be able to go. It was amazing to hear about all the Jewish customs and traditions and all the symbolism being a picture of Christ. It really connected everything together for me. I think going to Israel would solidify things more for me and make it a lot more real. We'll see what happens with that one.

Monday, April 02, 2007

How things change

This time last year I had just started my blog. I was laying on the couch hoping and praying that I would hold my baby at the end of this trial instead of saying goodbye to another child. And here we are today. I get to hold and cuddle my baby when she's sick... something I only dreamed about our first baby. Knowing that she needs me and wants me is a wonderful feeling. Knowing that David and I will (hopefully) be the ones she runs to in joy or trouble is a comfort.

I think of that remembering the day I lost Kaily. When I was sitting there and all of a sudden she started coming down. Besides David, I couldn't think of anyone to call but my mom. And now I am that person for someone else. I wonder what lies in my daughter's future and hope that loss doesn't touch her like it has me. But in my heart I know... loss is a part of everyone's life. We are all touched by it sooner or later.

There is a part of me that will never be the same as it was before Kaily. I don't think that's all a bad thing. But there are parts of me I want back. In reality they're not coming back. It's like there's a new me that I have to learn about. And having Dorothy here doesn't take that away. I find myself in a bind when asked if Dorothy is my first. I say yes, but inside I mean no. Because I knew my first daughter even if nobody else did.

I still think of her every day. Not appreciating my living daughter any less, but in wishing I knew her in the same way I know Dorothy. Someday I hope I will.