tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24778307.post115255376853082956..comments2023-09-03T01:26:04.350-07:00Comments on Natural Mom on a Shoestring: Update, Update.....Beccihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02843445845439279244noreply@blogger.comBlogger15125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24778307.post-1153323043027697462006-07-19T08:30:00.000-07:002006-07-19T08:30:00.000-07:00Jill, what you said is true about the bitterness b...Jill, what you said is true about the bitterness being the only other option. I feel the same way.<BR/><BR/>I am writing a new entry right now for all of you that are wondering where I have been....Beccihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02843445845439279244noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24778307.post-1153288682380998472006-07-18T22:58:00.000-07:002006-07-18T22:58:00.000-07:00Wow, I really can relate to what you wrote about t...Wow, I really can relate to what you wrote about the challenge to your faith. I think that accepting that we will never have many of the answers that our hearts seek concerning why God allows babies to die and yet continuing to choose to trust God anyway is the essence of faith. For me, also, the answer to "do I keep believing or not?" was that I have to; for me, the other road would only lead to bitterness and darkness.<BR/><BR/>I hope that your newfound freedom from bedrest will go well and that you will be able to enjoy getting out of the house more.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24778307.post-1153216512100891262006-07-18T02:55:00.000-07:002006-07-18T02:55:00.000-07:00How are things? Just checking in on you and Doroth...How are things? Just checking in on you and Dorothy. Take care.Emmakirsthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08754463911324622388noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24778307.post-1152823114230656892006-07-13T13:38:00.000-07:002006-07-13T13:38:00.000-07:00I am so happy that you got to get out! Yay on the ...I am so happy that you got to get out! Yay on the progress! It is overwhelming to registar at Babies R Us! I did mine on the web!<BR/><BR/>It is hard to understand God's plan for all our lives. We have to have the faith in HIM that HE can see the whole picture. And we can't. It was not until last year that I gained real peace for the loss of my Brandon Scott in 1991. I always knew God had my best interest at heart and I had faith to believe in HIM and HIS will. It was very hard to try and understand and the grief took me over on most days. But during my pregnancy with Caylan and my 30th birthday last year I looked back at the paths I had been down and realized that God even 15 years ago through that horrible event of loosing my first born son, had my best interest at heart. And I realize that if I had not have lost Brandon that I would not have Caylan. I would have had my tubes tied after my third was born. I could not have EVER imagined my life without this lil girl. And even through the pain that I suffered for so many years, God knew what was ahead. That HE had a miracle waiting for me.<BR/><BR/>We have to realize that God never promised that we would not face trials and heartaches but He did promise us hope for tomorrow through HIS son Jesus Christ. <BR/><BR/>When you hold Dorothy in your arms you will start healing more and more everyday from your loss of Kaily. Not that you will ever forget but you will feel more at peace than you do now. <BR/><BR/>(((((HUGS)))))) and love to you! I hope this made sense.Shawn Mariehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08659653480386982945noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24778307.post-1152822390569542012006-07-13T13:26:00.000-07:002006-07-13T13:26:00.000-07:00Becci I'm so glad you have a date set now!! Now yo...Becci I'm so glad you have a date set now!! Now you have something to reach for. How exciting you get to do more now but take it easy as best you can.. dont want anymore incidents like you had and you can get back into shape after Dorothy comes!!Tonyahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02281227691142336314noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24778307.post-1152761672246930082006-07-12T20:34:00.000-07:002006-07-12T20:34:00.000-07:00I agree, you have to believe that He has a plan fo...I agree, you have to believe that He has a plan for everyone. Without that faith I think I would have been even more lost after losing Kate and my little blip after her. I admit that at first I was so hurt and angry that I had a hard time. But after a little time, meditation and eventually prayer I got there. I like to imagine that both of my babies watch over my boys and Brandon and I.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24778307.post-1152672045182627482006-07-11T19:40:00.000-07:002006-07-11T19:40:00.000-07:00I found your blog through another blog and I found...I found your blog through another blog and I found myself reading your entire story. I first read this post and I was caught by the song, He Knows My Name. I am so sorry that your first baby is not here with you, but I am confident she is much happier with God. Easy for me to say, I know, but I mainly just wanted you to know that I was touched by your blog. I will be praying for you and the rest of your pregnancy!<BR/>Sincerely,<BR/>Heidi from Southern CaliforniaTrying to Love, Laugh & Livehttps://www.blogger.com/profile/09381058533358738052noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24778307.post-1152630965995514612006-07-11T08:16:00.000-07:002006-07-11T08:16:00.000-07:00I was worried when you started talking about babie...I was worried when you started talking about babies-r-us. I was on light bed rest with my twins and I could barely spend a 1/2 hour in a store. I am so glad you are ok. I found after my bed rest it was a bit of a long recovery post delivery so I am glad that you are able to get up a little now.<BR/><BR/>God and sick children/loss of children/not able to have children always confuse me... I have come to think that maybe he doesn't control what happens but instead is there for us to help us through what happens???? I don't know but that is the thought that gets me through the confusion some times.<BR/><BR/>Take care and wishing you a long PG!!soralishttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08874975328481113933noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24778307.post-1152618622536092952006-07-11T04:50:00.000-07:002006-07-11T04:50:00.000-07:00Why wouldn't we have a right to ask 'Why?' of God?...Why wouldn't we have a right to ask 'Why?' of God? If one believes that we are creations of God adn that all God's creation has a purpose, then there must be a purpose to our being able to question God.<BR/><BR/>Anyway, great post, and thanks for making me think. Hope the next 6 weeks fly by for you!Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24778307.post-1152589454780924082006-07-10T20:44:00.000-07:002006-07-10T20:44:00.000-07:00oh believe me Meri-Ann, I was VERY angry for month...oh believe me Meri-Ann, I was VERY angry for months. Not to say that I am completely at peace even now, but I am getting there I guess. It's normal to have anger when you lose something so precious....Beccihttps://www.blogger.com/profile/02843445845439279244noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24778307.post-1152577142810808552006-07-10T17:19:00.000-07:002006-07-10T17:19:00.000-07:00Congrats on an official date set for the removal, ...Congrats on an official date set for the removal, it must be such a huge relief. I can only imagine how much of a toll bedrest has taken on your body. Take care. :)Emmakirsthttps://www.blogger.com/profile/08754463911324622388noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24778307.post-1152574262222721282006-07-10T16:31:00.000-07:002006-07-10T16:31:00.000-07:00Well done on getting out and about a bit, but make...Well done on getting out and about a bit, but make sure you take it easy!<BR/>I met a Christian lady yesterday who is at such peace with losing her baby because she knows that God took her for a reason, and I envy this lady her faith and the comfort she takes from it. I don't get comfort that God has taken 4 beautiful, perfect babies for me, I think I'm still too angry......Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24778307.post-1152568271124938622006-07-10T14:51:00.000-07:002006-07-10T14:51:00.000-07:00Congrats on the date for you cerclage removal. It...Congrats on the date for you cerclage removal. It sounds like you'll be getting yours out just as I'm getting mine in, LOL. <BR/><BR/>I too, have questioned my faith, lately, just as you have. I choose to continue to believe that He knows what He's doing, whether I understand it or not. If He wanted us to understand, I believe that we would. <BR/><BR/>Good luck on future outings...I hope your energy comes back, bit by bit!Melissahttps://www.blogger.com/profile/18427451754874226530noreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24778307.post-1152563775826219992006-07-10T13:36:00.000-07:002006-07-10T13:36:00.000-07:00Becci, you helped me figure out why that song made...Becci, you helped me figure out why that song made me so emotional at church yesterday. I forgot about father's day last year, and I still don't remember singing that song on that day.<BR/><BR/>I thought it was just the words, and it made me think of both Kaily and Dorothy. The emotions caught me off guard, and I have a feeling I am doomed whenever I hear...or try to sing...that song again.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-24778307.post-1152556711672291752006-07-10T11:38:00.000-07:002006-07-10T11:38:00.000-07:00It's ironic, right? We spend all this time in bed ...It's ironic, right? We spend all this time in bed only to have no energy when it's okay to go out. I found myself saying that I just needed to get BACK to the couch the other day, I was so tired by an outing. Congrats on teh freedom, and congrats on setting a date for cerclage removal!!KMWhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/03345570249725222608noreply@blogger.com